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looks like this was before those audio entries
i don't remember my mom at all
kinda shocked me to know i even had one
i don't recognize the older lady in the pictures around the house anymore

but look at all the edgy stuff

mary

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    1. Yeah! (Send this to Mary if you can, without this part) Mary, Listen, I know what this means, what this is. Actually, I'm going through the same things! You'll understand once I say it.

      #1: The lady that's NOT in the mirror. She's a sign of your depression. It' pretty obvious if you hear what she's saying.

      #2: The lady that IS in the mirror. She's a sign of your self-conscious. She represents how you feel about how you look.

      #3: The fully-black person. They're a sign of your regrets. I don't think there's anything left to say about them.

      #4: The black thing. It's a sign of your anxiety. I can't give you any advise bc I'm dealing with it probably way more than you T^T

      #5: The lady in white. She's trying to help you.

      #6: The garden. The garden represents drugs. Stay away from it.

      #7: The house. The house is a representation of your mind.

      Advise: Stay away from the garden, For your regrets, you have to know and believe and KNOW that it already happened. I know you don't remember it, but just believe it still. Try to open your door to the people knocking and ringing your doorbell. They're people who are trying to help. This should help. If not, watch these: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vl1PriEfI6U and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gmdef1uz_OI Should make you laugh 😄 Ok bye

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    2. If I'm correct, this should get her back to reality 😁

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    3. Oh and I think the broken stuff are other people who fell into the hands of the drugs. Everyone, Let's save Mary. (reply if you agree!)

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    4. Wait a sec Mary's free I should have watched it all BEFORE I typed lol

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    5. Well, Mary, after we helped you, could you help me some? I'm a girl, like you, and I have puberty coming up for me. I need help. Fight with me, please. I need it as much, or even more, than you did. Thank you.(everyone else can too, if you want. I don't have enough power to fight off my monsters. Thanks yall.)

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  2. There's the hidden guy on this one too.

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  3. Found hidden message in the source code:

    "Something's wrong. I'm worried. It's taking all my strength to"

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  4. Noticed that the “there is a Hell In My Mind” phrase in the top right of the journal has HIMM capitalized, like the words in hiimmarymary. Idk if this means anything though lol

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    1. OoOooO ur right! If it means nothing you just notice a lot!

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  5. whoever is editing the source code you have to get through to her.

    we can't anymore.

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  6. "Todos temos um inferno particular"

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    1. Indeed, we all have our own hell

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    2. Eita um br?? Qq ta acontecendo aqui to meio perdida ? Era pra eu ter visto os videos e dps a coleção ou ...?

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  7. They are too powerful. Mary, I’m so sorry we failed to help you. There must be something we are missing. Hope we’ll get an update soon.

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  8. You NEED to listen. We are trying to help you get out from this hell.

    I will post again, even if it might not even get through the house's filtering.
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    Are you still there, Mary?

    I need you to understand something vital.

    She did not lie when she said you know them all by name.

    Behind the veil is you, Mary. It is Anxiety, telling you everything you do not want to hear about yourself and looking to bring you down at every point.

    Behind the mask in the mirror is you, Mary. It is your Insecurity, looking down on you and laughing at the way you look.

    In the dark is your shadow, Mary. An undeterminable Anger towards your situation, and the fact that you are trapped here.

    The house is yours, Mary. The demons are trespassers.

    As long as they are there, you cannot leave.

    The Garden is not as it seems. It is but another room in the house - endless, thus still keeping you trapped, unable to really leave.

    Each time you spend a night there, you choose to ignore your problems.

    But they do not go away, Mary.

    They only get worse unless you confront them.

    She can touch you now, Mary.

    What will happen next time?

    What if they become too strong for you to even combat?

    What if you can never open that door?

    We're all sorry we made you go through what happened last time, but you *need* to understand.

    If you keep going like this, things will only get worse.

    Why would Anxiety tell you we lie? Why would it tell you to go to the Garden?

    Has it not made it clear how much it *hates* you?

    *So why does it want you to go to the Garden?*

    Please come back to us soon, Mary.

    We're all waiting.

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    1. I would like to help you and mary

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    2. Yes! We need you! You need us! WE don't hate you! They do! The garden does! The lady in white DOESN'T!!! Reply plz, Mary. We're worried 😢😭

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  9. se isso tudo for verdade .....eu poderei te ajudar....e pode ter certeza de que você vai ficar em paz....essas coisas vão embora pra sempre...se não for verdade e você estiver montando tudo isso com alguém vai acontecer realmente e pior....

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    1. Para de ser doente, é um filme com história oculta nd mais

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  11. ok I removed the other comment because it glitched and wouldnt go through properly. HTML works apparently. This was the message i found in the source code, because someone else mentioned a message in it

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  13. what fucking happened
    we need updates

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  14. Mary please update, we believe in you and we're still here, dont give up

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  15. We need to know what has happend I just watched all your videos. Where are you?

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  16. Hell is not a place where bad people go after they die... hell is not an endless pit of fire and torment... hell is not a punishment brought onto us by some vengeful deity... Hell is nothing anyone deserves...

    NO!

    Hell is the guilt that weighs us down in day to day life!
    Hell is the memory of failing, something or someone near to us!
    Hell is the shadow of doubt creeping into every decision we make!
    Hell is the moment we deny who we really are just to appease to others!

    HELL IS BEING TRAPPED IN THE CONFINES OF A BROKEN MIND!!!

    Hell is a place we create to punish ourselves...

    Hell is a lost memory...

    Hell is not being able to forgive ourselves... not being able to let go...

    Hell is what you make it.

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  17. MARY, I DON'T HAVE MUCH MORE TIME AND MAYBE THIS COMMENTE WILL BE DELETED SOON SO JUST BREAK THE MIRROR, THE MIRROR IS THE PORTAL BETWEEN THE TWO WORLDS IF YOU DO YOU WILL HAVE A CHANCE TO COME BACK, NOW!

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  18. You NEED to listen. We are trying to help you get out from this hell.

    I will post again, even if it might not even get through the house's filtering.
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    Are you still there, Mary?

    I need you to understand something vital.

    She did not lie when she said you know them all by name.

    Behind the veil is you, Mary. It is Anxiety, telling you everything you do not want to hear about yourself and looking to bring you down at every point.

    Behind the mask in the mirror is you, Mary. It is your Insecurity, looking down on you and laughing at the way you look.

    In the dark is your shadow, Mary. An undeterminable Anger towards your situation, and the fact that you are trapped here.

    The house is yours, Mary. The demons are trespassers.

    As long as they are there, you cannot leave.

    The Garden is not as it seems. It is but another room in the house - endless, thus still keeping you trapped, unable to really leave.

    Each time you spend a night there, you choose to ignore your problems.

    But they do not go away, Mary.

    They only get worse unless you confront them.

    She can touch you now, Mary.

    What will happen next time?

    What if they become too strong for you to even combat?

    What if you can never open that door?

    We're all sorry we made you go through what happened last time, but you *need* to understand.

    If you keep going like this, things will only get worse.

    Why would Anxiety tell you we lie? Why would it tell you to go to the Garden?

    Has it not made it clear how much it *hates* you?

    *So why does it want you to go to the Garden?*

    Please come back to us soon, Mary.

    We're all waiting.
    -Unknown

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  19. you can do it :,)
    ignore them and pray youll get out <3

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  20. hello sugar face. hope your ok, seen pic of you stuffed in back of pickup with ur tounge hanging out give people the finger, .ya im greieving, im an irishman whos had everything fakewd to him, and his son took away forever, im never going heal, not from losing killian. yopu? ya. i,ll get over you., you played me from start and need attn all thew time from many sources,, how many bloody profiles you have just on this site , and seths page???? you spent 30k on hiom and other dudes, and me and our kids didnt have shit, but what i could get, anyway no gonna harp bout that, i still love you, it hurt to see you ion such a way.

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  21. i do and always was devoted to you, if you ever think you can be truely honest, theres chance yet again,. you were spose be last one yano? we should been getting married in ireland by now, not every dime we had give to jqack asses using the chubby girl

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  22. What does the secret text say on this one? I am on Mobile and can not check.

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  24. STAY OUT OF THE GARDEN AND FIGHT AGAINST THE CREATURES MARY! Also for anyone checking comments go to into this link and find out more to help MaryMary. We are so close to free her if we all work together https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xbskLnJfU84 also MaryMary the lady in white is a helper. Everyone that wants to help check this video out and please help end this ever lasting nightmare of MaryMary's life.

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  25. The woman in the white dress is saying.
    Get out its not safe get out tell her tell her!

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  26. were here for you is what i think it says

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  27. Stay out of the Garden!
    Find a way to speak with us live during the night time. STAY WITH US. The longer you run, the stronger they get.

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  28. Mary!
    Stay out of the garden, you're just getting worse from it.
    Try livestreaming on youtube at at night, so you wont be alone, and we can help you with your inner demons, and finally win.
    Trust the lady in white. She wont kill you because you are the same person, just different representations. She's your survival instinct. You heavily rely on her.
    And DON'T stop communicating with us.
    Stay alive and strong girl!
    Bye!
    ( I will publish this comment on every post so it will be more noticeable.
    Im probs going to get flagged or banned for spam but this is important)

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  29. Mary, stay out of the garden. You're so strong, you can be stronger than your monsters, you just have to face them

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  30. Answer the door...answer the phone....trust yourself and listen.

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  31. Last time I saw you, the garden was closed. If it opens again, DO NOT go in! I'm begging you, the garden is killing you. Answer the phone, answer the door. People are trying to help you. Did you really think no one would notice that you've been missing for 4 years? The demons are from your own mind. You need help now more then ever. Don't give up.

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  32. Mary we love you. Stay out of the garden. i know the house is scary and you feel better and safer in the garden but its killing you. you can be strong. we can help you be strong just please let us in..we are here we love you

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  33. Mary are you still with us? we are all so worried.

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  34. Mary trust the woman in white she wants to keep you away from the garden its not safe there. PS Liz will call you back so stay strong and don't give up

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  35. dear woman in white,

    we can hear you.

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  36. mary please try to live stream at night. I know you probably cant see this but you need to fight back. DONT TELL HER TO KILL YOU. we are trying to reach you. please mary we can save you. they are you. you can fight back. DONT GO TO THE GARDEN.

    we care for you mary.

    get better soon.


    please.

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  37. Trust the white lady! She is right! Do not go to the garden.Its something much worse. Every thing has a cost,Mary!

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  38. the garden takes safety from the house. Answer the calls to get you out of this torment.

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  39. STAY OUT OF THE GARDEN! Please!

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  40. Mary! Listen to the white dressed woman!!




    Come back to us...

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  41. please let us know that your still here in 2020 with us

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  42. the unknown lady is good. talk to her. she wants to protect you.

    for the lady in the white, i dont know what you have but use anything to write on. get her attention. offer her a flower. make yourself look nice or something.

    mary, the garden is turning on you. the garden isnt safe anymore. leave it forever.

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  43. Woman in white- can you hear us? Can you still reach us? We want to help Mary, but she's been consumed so completely that she believes we never existed. We can't reach her, but hopefully we can reach you.

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one last picture of me

for good measure, i guess mary